Missy | February 28, 2003

Gerry:
Real quick, since I’m back out the door presently for some playing of pool, or in my case, sitting around jawing while others play pool….

The film’s a panoramic view of beauty and terror, with sparse dialogue punctuating long, long sequences of looking and walking, and still, it’s one film that left me stunned. Incredibly thirsty, and stunned. Three things struck me: 1) how is it possible to get lost in the U.S.? I don’t just mean lost, I mean horrifically lost. And I kind of mean this retorically, because I’m sure there’s someone more traveled than myself out there who can assure me it is indeed possible. And given that we’re not told anything specific about these characters beyond their general demographic, “lost” can encapsulate more than just the literal, which is something I’ll need to spend more time thinking about. 2) True acting takes place when words aren’t spoken, and there wasn’t a second when I didn’t know exactly what was going through either Gerry’s head. (Both characters are “named” Gerry.) 3) What will certainly stand as my favorite scene of the year is when the camera slowly (excruciatingly slowly) circles Casey Affleck, and then turns and circularly pans his surroundings. It capured in one mere scene not just the beauty and terror I mentioned above, but more specifically an almost certain feeling of desperation and aloneness and death.

*sigh*
I feel like I just purged about a bunch of jumbled thinking.
Later.

More [1:40 am]: Some of the most startling imagery–and really, the bulk of the film–is the aesthetically pleasing stuff, the combination of natural colors (and not to mention the vastness of the landscape) that really grabs the eye, yet most of it falls in the context of deep futility. The scene towards to end as the sun is rising leaps to mind. I spent minutes simply contemplating the colors against the cadence of the Gerrys’ shuffling.

Missy | February 28, 2003

Lileks is on fire today. At the risk of parroting Glenn, read the whole thing.

Gerry opens at Visions today. I imagine I will be there for the first showing at 5. (Official site.)

I’m out of things to talk about. How YOU doin?

Update: DC is no New York when it comes to film offerings. No Fassbinder retrospectives, for example. But, here we shall get to appreciate the forgotten musicals of recent decades with a showing of Xanadu at - get ready for it - the Library of Congress. Also on the list: De Palma’s Phantom of the Paradise and one of my favorite childhood movies, Altman’s Popeye. (Note to self: maybe you should check out some stuff sometime at the Pickford theater and quit yer bellyaching about lack of interesting film goings-on.)

Other film stuff: Frederick Wiseman’s Domestic Violence is being shown on PBS in two installments in mid-March.

Even if love

Missy | February 26, 2003

I go to happy hour with some of my favorite work people. Much as I can poke fun at the joint most of the time, it’s been good to me, and they’re good people. Several happy hour-priced Budweisers later, I decide it’s time to flag a cab, but as I venture out into the cold, very cold night with the earlier snowfall packed down tight on the sidewalk, the remaining snow clouds reflecting the city’s light down on itself, I quietly walk quietly all the way back to Union Station and I take the subway. Still more still cold walking home. Will Oldham. Jesus, the music makes me peaceful and still makes me want to kill myself. (Not really, people. Geez.) Home. Could my freezing toes be any more freezing? Will again, on my stereo. I’m a little too drunk to start a new book. Anew. My eyes are squinting, blinking towards sleep. The beady red eyes of the Washington Monument blink back, goodnight.

Bored now

Missy | February 26, 2003

Busy morning. Slow afternoon.

SMG is leaving Buffy. The rumors have been circulating for months, so it’s really no surprise. Say, how’s that movie career working out for you, Sarah?

Regarding last night’s episode, the writers were smart to make Andrew the focus, since his comic relief is about the only thing worthwhile about this whole season, which has been uncharacteristically stagnant. Also, nice dig at the Buffy speeches.

Afterwards, I tried to get sleepy by reading more of The Frog King, and I ended up barreling through ’til the end. A light and imperfect read, it still managed to offer sucker punches to the gut on approximately three different occasions. The book is funny, but I simultaneously found it inexorably depressing. Ignore the Amazon user comments. I’ll sum them up for you: readers found the book hilarious, or they read it with some perceived moral superiority. I latched onto it because of its egocentricity, snobbery, self-loathing, and immaturity…..and in some sense one can draw similarities between it and High Fidelity. Though, unlike Harry, I’m not purposely jeapordizing my job, nor am I cheating on a significant other, I came to a realization or two about some terrifically dumb things I’ve done but have pushed to the back of my consciousness, and to that end the book was, in my mind, a success.

Unrelated: the annual Intel Science Competition finals will once again be coming to town next week. I dragged Jeff to it a few years back and that was the day I realized that he is a hell of a lot smarter than me. [If you're reading this, ever, know that I wouldn't say it if it weren't true.] Anyway, if you live in the area, go. It’s fun. And unbelievably daunting. (I think the open-to-the-public exhibit is next week, the 9th & 10th.) Also, if I ever have children and I continue to live in the area, they’ll go to Blair, a local public school (in MD) that consistently has a disproportionate number of Intel semi-finalists and finalists (”only” one finalist this year). Not that my kids are going to be math & science geeks. Not that I’m planning on having kids.

This is how dumb I am, Pt. I

Missy | February 25, 2003

In the past three days I have spent close to 10 hours in the dance studio. Yesterday afternoon I’m thinking, what the the hell do I do between work and my 8:30 rehearsal? I can’t go home; home means lounging and getting tired and wanting to crack open a beer. So my initial plan was to go to the movies….only the movies that I want to see were all playing at around 4 or at 7. Doesn’t anyone show movies at 5:30 or 6 anymore? There was one, Dark Blue, at 5:30 across the street at Union Station, but I hate seeing movies there, and I figured I’d wait for DVD for that movie anyway. Think, Missy, think. Aha! There is a class at 6:30 that I could go to, in the studio where we’ll be rehearsing, and I’d be all warmed up for rehearsal. So I went. But this is a two hour class of advanced jazz. I haven’t taken that class in probably 6 months. I haven’t taken a jazz class in probably 2 months. This particular teacher’s warmup I can practically do in my sleep since I’ve taken his class so often; but once we started moving across the floor in a combination featuring approximately 7 double turns, both inward and outward and right & left, I knew I’d made a grave error in judgment. I ended up bailing during the last ten minutes so I could go in the hallway and stretch. Rehearsal went fine, but I didn’t get home til ’round midnight.

I’m so tired today; you have no idea.

On an unrelated note: my cable. HBO is here to stay, apparently. PLUS, I now have the heretofore unchanneled in DC channels E! and Comedy Central, and who knows what else. This exciting stuff, even for an irregular tv watcher like myself. I don’t know what happened, but it looks like good things come to those who wait (and do absolutely nothing).

Missy | February 24, 2003

Emma Caulfield: Republican Babe. (Thanks Dave.)

So what did you think of Oz? I know the show was ending and all, but I could have done without all the speeches by the major characters. I’ve always found Augustus Hill’s monologues more than adequate to pull everything together. Also, Macbeth? Was anyone cracking up as soon as the curtain opened, because it was apparent that we had trained actors (who’ve more likely than not done Shakespeare in their day) playing prisoners playing Shakespeare. A little too good, if you ask me. Other than that, I’m just waiting for the release of more seasons so I can fill in the gaps.

The Wire is going to be reairing on Sunday nights starting next week. Assuming I still have HBO, I’ll be watching.

Missy | February 23, 2003

Morvern Callar:
Grocery store clerk makes some almost absurd decisions as a means to seize opportunity, and, perhaps, envision a different kind of life. Stars Samantha Morton, who is fast approaching Emily Watson as one of my favorite actresses from across the pond.

I’m very glad I had seen Ratcatcher, director Lynne Ramsey’s prior feature film because, while the two have no direct links beyond stylistic choices, it gave me a sense of what Ramsay is trying to achieve in her films: a sensory experience of an unusual central character. That is, beyond the seeing and hearing, you can also almost feel and smell the surroundings. I’m serious. I felt all sweaty (well, that’s because I was; more on that later) and I could smell (among other things so as not to give plot away) the sweat and sea air. I just read elsewhere that Ramsay was a photographer prior to her filmmaking career, and I’m certainly not surprised, given her intimate relationships between actor & camera. And the music! Especially as it is filtered in and out of earphones, is equally important in suffusing a hedonistic energy into the film. Morton as Morvern is a tough nut to crack. She’s weird, definitely, and you’re not quite sure of her motivations. But she’s also aware and introverted. You sort of not sure whether you like or or if you should be condemning her.

Also: another viewing of the Gerry trailer. Again, I’m dancing with anticipation (and not for long; I think it opens next week). I can really get behind a visual film without a lot of dialogue. Also, I’d like to point out that I was never much of a Good Will Hunting naysayer. In fact, I saw it in the theater twice. Sure, it’s a Movie for the Masses (a direction in which Van Sant has been heading, to the dismay of many, I’m sure), but I liked the genius-as-complete asshole because he didn’t get any love or a proper upbringing. Sure, Robin Williams in one of his Professor Beard roles is uber annoying, and the ending warms the heart in a saccharine kind of way. I still enjoyed it. Also, I have always like Matt Damon. And I think Casey Affleck is much funnier & more interesting & far less irritating than his older brother.

Why was I all sweaty, you may be wondering? I hopped over to Visions right after dance class. Normally I avoid doing this, and I was careful to sit away from others. Heh. Nice. Anyway, I happened to see there the guy I may have referenced in the past, a handsome and not annoying-looking hipster-ish morning Metro rider, the one who always has his head in a book and never looks up? Of course I was looking like ass, but it didn’t matter because he scarcely looked at me. And I walked halfway home practically five feet behind him! No, I wasn’t stalking; we just happened to be going in the same direction. He doesn’t look gay, but he is certainly impervious to women and people in general; wonder if there’s a girlfriend back home. In any case, he wins serious cool points from me in seeing a film barely outside film-snob and critics’ circles, during its opening weekend and by himself. Fellow introverts of the world, unite!

Finally, my body is falling apart. We’re auditioning our entire workshop piece next week (the part put together in my workshop, plus the one created in a previous workshop–one in which I should emphasize I was not originally a part). My head is swimming with choreography. I took a little nap this afternoon, and I dreamt of the new stuff I just learned in the old piece for the points when I’ve been inserted. I was at the studio yesterday for 4.5 hours, and I really shouldn’t have taken class this morning. I’m a big fat bag of negative energy. I have a rehearsal tomorrow night from 8:30 until whenever. My knee has been bothering me all week and that’s entirely due to having to schlep over and through mountains of snow. I am nervous. I’m nervous for myself. I’m nervous that we’re not going to be good enough, that we haven’t had enough time to prepare. But I figure, as long as I personally don’t fuck up, I will be accepting of whatever fate is handed to us.

Oh wait, one last thing: I watched Oz last night, and plan to watch the finale tonight. Now mind you, I’ve seen only seasons one and two, but I was surprised at how little has changed, even though some new characters and storylines were confusing to me. The Chris-Tobias-Shillinger thing is pretty much the same. Ryan still has the hots for the doctor. But look! There’s little Joel Grey! (aka Mr. Cellophane [Chicago]. And the M.C. [Cabaret].) Also, has McManus gained weight? He’s attractive, though. You know, balding, plus he has a conscience but doesn’t put up with people’s shit. And apparently he got both married & divorced in the time I’ve not seen the series.

No, one more thing: you may be interested in these year-end Best-Of film lists. (Thanks to Mike D’Angelo and Alex Fung.)

Thank you and good night.

Missy | February 22, 2003

It’s good to know I still have some zest for reading. I plowed through Cheese Monkeys in less than a day & a half, time that–I might add–also included work, sleep and the ballet. What’s next? I’m excited.

The ballet. I really liked Paloma Herrera’s girlish, yet determined & passionate Juliet, and I bought in to her and Marcelo Gomes’ chemistry. I felt like he was truly in love with her. I even teared up during the balcony scene and at the end. (Trust me when I say it’s damn near impossible not to during that balcony scene; much as I’m not in love with Prokofiev’s score, that scene’s music and that choreography is a stoic’s downfall.) I did not, however, like seeing the ballet in the Kennedy Center’s Concert Hall. Because the Eisenhower is too small, and the Opera House is under renovation, the ballet had to be staged in the boxy, curtainless, wingless venue that normally houses the likes of NSO. The proscenium had to be built out, and the orchestra sat upstage, in front of the enormous pipe organ pipes. That said, it gave the ballet a stark & intimate feeling, much like a play.

It is pouring out. (Good riddance crunchy grey snow! Also, one final F. U. to all the people & businesses who couldn’t be bothered to shovel their walks.) I don’t much feel like hauling myself up to the studio for classes this afternoon, but I’ve no choice. Also, my wonky cable has been fixed, and I happened upon Showtime & HBO, which I’m assuming are there for a weekend trial only. But if not….gee I’ll never leave the house, I’m afraid. I swore I’d never watch episodes of Oz out of order & beyond what’s available on DVD, but since the series finale is tomorrow (with, I believe, a re-airing of the penultimate episode tonight) I may break with tradition.

Missy | February 21, 2003

I got my hair trimmed the other day, but my hairdresser went to town on my head and now I’m looking very shorn and boy-like. I’m feeling more like Laurie Anderson than Mia Farrow. Good thing I’m on a self-imposed dating hiatus.
UPDATE: Here I am. Remember how I mentioned that my neighbor thinks my name is Nicole? [Link changed. Here is the photo.]

I’m blatantly ripping this off from elsewhere, but it’s Friday and I’m bored. The March Premiere has a list of memorable moments/favorite scenes. I haven’t seen it, but readers at their site have written in with many of the obvious ones. Here are some of mine:

Cross cutting between the hotel bar & hotel room in Out of Sight
Angkor Wat, In the Mood for Love
The children at the Punch & Judy show, The 400 Blows
Slo-mo printer beating, Office Space
The opening Cannes sequence, Femme Fatale
The opening tracking shot, Touch of Evil
The best of Julianne Moore: No pants, Short Cuts and The pharmacy, Magnolia
Margo steps off the bus, Me & Julio, and “It’s been a tough year, Dad”, The Royal Tenenbaums
“Heaven and Hell”, Rushmore
Cropduster, North by Northwest
Guido translates German, Life is Beautiful

And a couple of great throwaway gags:
H.I. scrapes his knuckles on the ceiling, Raising Arizona
Timmy Lupus mixing Coach Buttermaker a cocktail (martini, I think) in The Bad News Bears

Feel free to contribute.

Missy | February 20, 2003

After work I had some time to kill before a movie, so I went to Olssons. I swear, sometimes I am the worst impulse shopper. I was in there not more than 5 minutes, and I walked out with four books, bringing my queue of books-to-be-read to about 1120. But I purposely selected lighter fare, including Cheese Monkeys, recommended by both Jen and Mihow, who pretty much lived the book, or so I’m told. It’s written by Chip Kidd, the graphic designer who kind of changed the face (literally) of books. You may remember him as the designer behind Donna Tartt’s The Secret History, with its clear plastic cover & no words written on the hardcover face or back.

Then I went to see Russian Ark, a glorious-looking HDDV (whouda thunk) shot in one continuous take with a cast of hundreds in extravagant costuming in the Russian Hermitage Museum featuring the jumping back & forth in time in Russian history. Although I was enchanted by it, I was also reminded of that ride at Disney World, “It’s a Small World”? Where you ride on the boat (don’t drink the water!), effectively gliding through different lands and “It’s a Small World” is sung over & over in different languages? It’s like that, only not annoying. No really; the film is quite beautiful. That said, given that I know very little about Russian history, I don’t feel like I learned anything, but I’m not sure the film is meant as a history lesson; rather, it gives a context for a person to enjoy the museum through film.

Also, in the five or so minutes prior to the film, because it was too dark in the theater to start one of my new books, I was stretching for ties between this season of Buffy and the post-9/11 geopolitical environment. I don’t know. I’ll get back to you when I’m on to something. (Like Buffy as Bush? You know, if you’re going to be snivelly & afraid, get out of my way? The SITs to this point as largely ineffectual, kind of like the U.N.? The little-seen but wise Giles as VP Cheney? The sometimes annoying but loyal Spike as PM Blair? The uncertainty of the First as an evil that can’t yet be understood or conquered?) Oops, look at that. It’s time for Friends.

Etc

Missy | February 19, 2003

Charles Taylor writes a thoughtful essay on 25th Hour for Salon, and in it, highlights pretty much every reaction I’ve had towards Spike Lee, Edward Norton, and the film itself.

I tried to watch Buffy last night but my cable has been wonky, so I ended up having to watching** it through a lot of noise. I do not, however, think I missed much.

**I am clearly NOT Queen of the World (of spelling).
[Edited 12:52 pm 2/19/03]

Update: That was a Simpsons reference. I seemed to have shut everybody up. Wassa matter? Cat got your tongues?

Also, I just discovered Chris Bishop, who is my new favorite illustrator. Now granted, I didn’t have a favorite illustrator prior to this designation. Still. You may know him from such websites as Reverse Cowgirl (warning: may not be work-appropriate). And he lives in DC. This is the kind of supafly stuff I should commission for my long-overdue redesign, and since I know jack about squat when it somes to that sort of thing (not to mention a kindergartner could best my drawing skills), outsourcing seems to be my best option.

Come rain, come shine, come snow, come sleet, the show MUST go on!

Missy | February 18, 2003

The sun is shining so bright that I’m afraid to go outside for fear I’ll be blinded. But hell, it’s the sun!

Even so, we’re home from work again today. I’m going a bit crazy, so I’m venturing out to do some record shopping. And, even though the studios have been closed for three days, my ballet teacher is giving an impromptu ballet class later this afternoon, for which I’m grateful since I’m starting to feel like a big fat cow from all the laying around I’ve been doing for three days.

Also, I watched Minority Report, and I liked it. I really, really liked it! Have I lost my mind?

~6 inches and counting….

Missy | February 16, 2003

In front of my building, 8 am:

Just so you know, Starbucks IS open.

UPDATE: Starbucks is closed. How do I know this? Because my refridgerator was empty and Sunday is typically grocery day and lack of food was making me pretty punchy so I ventured out in hopes of finding something, anything that was open. Meanwhile, the snow has pretty much doubled in depth, and my legs and lower back are tired from walking in it. Anyway, my friendly neighborhood convenience store was, luckily, open, and I practically pranced out armed with Honey Nut Cheerios, whole grain bread, and milk. Oh, and Red Hook ESB. Now my blood sugar and blood alcohol levels are on their way back to manageable levels.

Hey, have I ever mentioned that the Hottest Couple in the World lives in my building? No, not Brad & Jennifer. When I first saw this guy a couple of years back, with his rumpled hair and charming schoolboy good looks, I thought, “It is not fair that this man is not my boyfriend.” Then I saw his girlfriend, who has excellent thrift-chic fashion sense and a cute British (I think) accent, and I thought, “It is not fair that this woman is not my girlfriend. Even though I am straight and she is straight.” Why am I telling you this? Because on my way back I practically collided with them on the sidewalk (boy I wish) and there they were, rosy cheeked & cheery, she in her knee-high green rubber galoshes. Unfairly adorable, those two.

Warning: dance post

Missy | February 16, 2003

I went to see my teacher’s concert at Dance Place tonight. I don’t think I’ve ever witnessed this much athleticism in any type of venue with any type of sport ever. I’d seen the piece last fall in shorter form, but this was one hour of nonstop dancing by 4 men. And much of it was set to music written specifically for this work, and it tended toward avant garde, which meant there are no countable beats, which means that the phrases of choreography have to be felt, and rehearsed rehearsed rehearsed. (Not that having discernable beats implies less rehearsal time.) At the reception afterwards, my teacher said to me, “Did you recognize some of the choreography?” Of course I did, because he experiments with stuff on his students, which I find especially gratifying, especially because I’ve only recently discovered that I am less a lyrical dancer and more of a…I dunno, athletic dancer I guess, which is why I think his combinations feel so natural to me. Or maybe I’m just getting complacent from taking his class twice a week for about 8 months straight. (In any case, one of the things I get out of my sometimes- obsessiveness with taking class is not that I’m honing technique–which always needs work, mind you–but that I’m always in a process of self-discovery, even when said discovery is simple stuff like the fact that I turn better to the left than to the right.) Several of my workshop cohorts including that teacher were in attendance, despite our rehearsing til well into the 6 o’clock hour. And after the show & reception, I ended up hanging out with a couple of them for a couple of hours. Long day, indeed.

Speaking of the workshop, it’s coming together, but we’re seriously crunched for time because in a couple of weeks we’re auditioning it for a choreographer’s showcase. We’ll be up against the likes of Dana (which is not to say we’ll be excluded) but the stakes are pretty high, and this is the type of thing that gets written up in WaPo. If we get accepted, you’re all invited. (I think that’s the first weekend in April.) Plus, my teacher wants to include the first part of the piece, choreographed in a previous workshop, which means I may be learning a lot of choreography on the fly. Yikes. If it comes together, it’s good stuff, considering we’re all amateurs. (And my chronic lower back fatigue–I won’t say pain, because it goes away with a hot bath & rest–I’m certain means I need some serious pilates. Cursed weak abs.)

I also caught Rosalie O’Connor’s lecture at the Kennedy Center on Thursday. Her full photography exhibit doesn’t go up until next week, but it was very cool to hear a professional dancer & dance photographer speak about and present her work. I know little about photography, but some of her spectacular shots (including this beautiful one of Ashley Tuttle) were shot with a very expensive lens from far away with only stage lighting and pure luck on snapping at the right moment. And speaking of ABT, I’m seeing Romeo and Juliet this week. Paloma Herrera will be that night’s Juliet, but had I known the full casting before I bought tickets, I would’ve gone to Tuesday’s performance featuring Alessandra Ferri and Julio Bocca. *sigh* They are truly mesmerizing, even though I’ve seen them both only on tape.

Valentine’s schmalentines

Missy | February 14, 2003

(I’m not sure if I’ve used this one before, but what the hell…)

Love and kisses.
Your pal,
Missy

UPDATE: Congratulations to the future Mr. & Mrs. Toby Joe.